Trucking along

It's been a while since I've written about anything. The year ended very sour in 2012 and didn't get any better in 2013.
I am finally waking up from what I would like to call a nightmare.
My hysterectomy was anything but your "run of the mill" surgery.

The news is that the endometriosis is still there.

I had a total hysterectomy, which did include the removal of both ovaries.  Unfortunately there is still ovarian tissue left behind. I know my surgeon had a very difficult time, and the entire procedure took about seven hours.

I was extremely upset. I went into my own little world for a while.

Having a total hysterectomy, when you have no children, or even if you do have children, is no joke.

I feel cheated. I gave up so much, only for the disease to still be there?

My doctor ordered Lupron. My estrogen levels are still quite high, so despite the fact that I did have the surgery, I am not in menopause yet. The levels are substantially lower, but are not where they should be.

Endometriosis feeds and spreads with a high estrogen level, which is the reason I need to go on Lupron again.

Disappointing, and surreal is what I am feeling when it comes to this.

I am keeping the faith and praying every day and offering up any pain to God.  There is really nothing else I can do, but live day by day with God's grace, everyday.